love my mom
just had the best and one of my first real heart-to-heart conversations with my mother. i think this is exactly what i needed to feel better. i guess she could tell something was wrong with me because i’ve been acting all weird the past week like i’m depressed or something. i guess it’s the motherly instinct cause no matter how much i said i was fine she kept pushing it out of me. so she sat and listened to me basically cry my heart out.
i told her basically everything i could tell her without making her freak out cause again she still is my mother so i can’t go and tell her EVERYTHING -_- but she got a gist of what i was saying and gave me some great advice. some of it yeah, i heard from other people but i guess it takes somebody like your own mother to tell you, ya know? and as she was saying all this i saw it in her eyes she was reminiscing and definitely talking from experience. (it turns out my mom was quite the sexy beast and legit every guy from her town wanted the D lmfaaaaao).
but anyways, to sum it all up, she basically said that i need to know anger, pain, sadness, regret, disappointment and the like if i want to become a better person in life. it happens to everybody and it’s better i know it now. a few years from now i’m gonna laugh at how stupid i was to make such a small thing in my life so important. she also was being hella weird and giving me some pysch 101 info mixed in with my advice but it made us both laugh :’) i love this lady legit and the number one thing she told me that i am honestly gonna take into consideration is this:
that i should ask God for help. God knows i may be suffering or hurt or in pain or whatever the case is, but if i don’t ask for help how can He truly help me? yeah i’ve been asking God for helping and praying for forgiveness and everything else i usually pray for, but it hasn’t really been consistent. a stronger relationship with Him will help me with this whole thing and do nothing if not make me stronger as a person and have a stronger faith.
[wow this is the longest post i ever think i wrote.]
